Life Abroad travel blog

The pasta factory

Me and my new friend

enjoying a nice meal

Me and Nick

Me and Claire

Kate and I enjoying the night!

awe..Matty and Di

Can I keep you two?? Please!?!?!?

Note my actions buddy I will miss you!

me and my indigo girl

enjoying the wine

Chatting at Miam Miam

Me and my boys

I'm going to miss you MJ!!!!

Me and my wife...sorry Charlie

been crying a bit sara??


Vera dancin

One last picture with Christopher

I miss you guys!!

Do you see how badly Aiden wants me to stay!?!?!

You are a hard one to leave

I'm not really sure where to begin...

My farewell was absolutely wonderful, I am so fortunate to have so many wonderful people that have touched my life I just wish I didn't have to leave them. We went to the pasta factory for dinner and had some tasty food as we talked of the past several months and the friendships that were made. I received what topped the charts of friend Nick explained that he no longer considers me as an American. Not that it is bad to be an American it's just wonderful to be considered South African!! Everyone agreed and they talked about how they can no longer hear my accent...we shall see if you folks at home can hear the difference!!

After a nice meal we headed to Miam Miam and then to Jo-burg for a night filled with laughter, dancing and many tears. I took video clips of people so I have something to remind me of them when I am back at home. As the night proceeded people from the many diverse groups of friends I made along the way stopped in to say their good byes. It was so hard to let people go, I am so lucky to have met each of them, I just wish I could keep them. How do you come to care so deeply for so many people in just 8 months??? I tried my best to celebrate the time I had in South Africa rather than mourn the loss of it...but that proved to be rather difficult. It terrifies me that I may never see some of these people again. We have all heard that it is better to have loved and lost than to have never have loved at all...that may be true but it would have certainly been easier to have never loved at all! Every time I had to let someone go my heart broke just a little bit more. I was concerned that by the time I leave I would have no heart left at all.

I went to bed at about 5:30am in the last morning in Cape Town. When I woke up I had a bit of a mission ahead of me, packing was hectic! But it did get done and I managed to fit just about everything. Just as I finished the last of my packing people began to show up to escort me to the airport. First Charlie, then Matty, and Jess. I had my last cup of rooibos tea and rusks and we tried to make small talk though I was beginning to get a bit panicky. The time had come; we had to get on our way. I said a quiet goodbye to table mountain. I love that big rock!! It has such a presence and feels as if it is always there to protect you; it is a landmark that always lets you know when you are home. It was hard to say goodbye. We got to the airport through the pouring rain (South Africa was sad as well!) and I checked my luggage in. We headed to the café to grab a drink and a bite to eat.

As we sat around the table I fought back the tears occasionally looking out the window at the airplanes coming and going. I received a call from Nick saying he may not be able to make it and I really started to panic, but I did my best to hide it. We tried to talk but I was a bit of a wreak. Mom and dad arrived (Dee and Chris) and I was relieved to see their faces when they joined us at the table. I kept looking around hoping I would see Nick arrive and finally out of the corner of my eye I saw him walking up. Thank goodness!!! Nick was one of my best friends in my time here I would have been a mess if I wasn't able to say goodbye to him (as if I wasn't a mess already). He sat down and I tried to relax a bit, though it proved to be a rather impossible task. The time seemed to fly by and I could do nothing to stop it. And soon we were making our way to the gate. Everyone followed me along and I turned around to say goodbye and the tears just started falling. I couldn't stop them. I took a minute with everyone that had some to see me off and I just didn't want to let go. I knew this was going to hurt, I knew I was going to hate it but I didn't think that it was real until that moment. I felt so completely helpless. Finally, I had to walk away and leave my heart with them. And I did. I don't know how I did it, but I did. It is a moment that I will never forget.

I made my way to the gate, sobbing all the way. I found my seat on the plane the tears continued most of the way to London.

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